this is the 10th time of the year i've been so unlucky and unhappy.
can you guys believe it? starting from gastroenteritis, i had to eat charcoal med and i vomited so many many times, and serious diarrhea to a point that i almost died from dehydration.
then it stopped. dizziness and low blood pressure came. i lost a total of 5 kg in this period.
then one week ltr, i had to go for a day surgery to get my impacted tooth out. after that, the wound became very painful and yet i have to endure it-- AWAKE in the op room.
after the op i had to take a course of antibiotics. the antibiotics had serious side effects, my acne is leaving scars on my skin, and i suffered from yeast infections.
then a period ago, i was scraping my tongue and the tongue scrapper flew to my eye, and cut my eye. now i have to live on eye drops and couldn't wear my contact lenses.my eyeball is still painful.
and can u believe it? i shall tell you something tt happened last mth at ndc.
never judge a book by its cover.
i went back to place the metal ring ard my teeth, and he told me, if u feel pain or watever, just tell me.
so i rly did feel pain, and i told him i feel a bit painful. you know what he said?
"huh? this is painful? this is the least painful in the whole of braces treatment. i tot ur quite brave one, u went for op awake leh."
he was the one who told me to tell him if i feel uncomfortable, and now that i told him, he scolded me. wow and he said "NO NEED GO A AND E LA."
then i was curious and asked him about my wisdom tooth and thickness of the braces. you know wat he said, huh dun need to pluck out, u have to believe me, I AM UR DOCTOR.
the glue he put into my mouth had a sour taste, and so i asked him wats tt. he said: "wun die from eating it one. then he gave me wax and he added "WUN DIE ONE LA." wow.
no matter where i go what i do, there would be people hating and scolding me. i only asked him bcos im curious. then he scold me.
he is one off my doctors whom i tink is very very gentle, very good, very patient, and very good husband material. (doesnt mean i want him to be mine) he is so so so gd that i always look 4ward to gg to dentist. now i dun.
and in terms of studies, i still couldnt find any frens as crazy as sandy, and i couldnt make it into ntu.
i might as well die.
i love biology MORE THAN MY LIFE. even in my hardest time in RP, i never even had the thought of giving up my interest, now, i even feel like stopping sch.
i feel like giving up my own life. i am still gathering courage to kill myself.
that is the health part. now the relationship part.
why is it every time i like someone, the person doesn't like me back?
well, i'll never get married, and i feel lonely. my pillow nowadays are too wet for me to sleep.
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