I can't help but to be jealous and feel unfair for myself.

Or rather ironically, I am sometimes proud of my looks and I do have high self esteem.

What exactly am i taking about?

Everyone knows that I am an avid korean chaser. Koreans are known to be flawless for their skin and distinct features. I hate losing, I simply hate it. And because GOD knows that, I am born ugly.

I always browse throught the pictures of Ulzzangs and the more i flip, the more i am sadded.

Why are some people have diligently featured looks, so have cute looks and other have baddie looks and the one i hate most, is skinny and nerdy looks.

Despite the baddies look, they still look good.

Why am i born like this? I srsly hate my looks, and have u noticed lately that i dun dress elegantly or "nice" to school. Well, i simply found a need to stop all this, because when u look bad, u do not need excessive amount of makeup to make u look good. Ur simply ugly.

Well, srsly i once thought of cancelling my braces appt bcos i dun think i need it. I dun think it can enhance my looks anw.

This explains why i am single all these lonesome years.

I hate smiling and i dun know why.

I hate wearing specs. And i can't wear contatcs either bcos i have those pair of idiot sensitive eyes.

Oh and have i told u I HATE NERDY GUYS. DUN COME NEAR ME. ESP THOSE WEARING SPECS AND NERDY AND TALKS ABT SCH.

Well anw, i dun think they want to come near me too. So forget what i said above.

I wonder how some ppl are normal looking and they have a high level of self confidence. They know they are UGLY and still praise themselves for being beautiful.

Well, my parents was once a babe and a hunk, what about me? They gave all the good genes to my sis, and i've got nth. I hate to be compared to her, i know i am inferior.

Even my mum admitted, i mean she blurted out that my sis would shine as a star if she is a singer. She knows how much i wanted to be one, and she still mentioned it in front of ma face. Yes, in ma face.

Pimples, low nose and small eyes is what i have. Sometimes i browse thru my pics, i feel disgusted. And so, no more pics for fb, except for those ppl that tag me.

i was watching shinee and SNSD, and i rly love them. I want their face! anyone from snsd donates their face to me, i'll nv regret.

RMB i said i want to be a hyuna replica? I'll nv be.

I can forget about myself.

I will let u guys in a secret. I have planned from very young, i want to take part in star search. But i can forget it, I am UGLY. Look at fiona xie, tay ping hui and jeanette aw. They have sweet smiles and good personality.

I'll nv make it.

I HAVE BEEN CALLED UGLY BEFORE, RIGHT IN MY FACE.

COMMIT SUICIDE MUCH?

Well, its a thing sooner or later.



Signing off.




*proud of my looks bcos i erm... sometimes look a bit better in photos. I pity myself.