of course you do not know, bcos you are pretty or handsome, i am not.
since young, my family have been comparing me with my younger sis, who seems more cute and pretty and smiles all the time and knows how to bootlick and stuff like tt... she bootlick purposely and beats me in front of my mum n she does nth..
ya, i admit tt i am not as pretty as her, as my mum's fren, my cousin bf and others had said that as well. I dun smile bcos i am not pretty, even though i smile, nobody likes it too..
i am really sick and tired of ppl comparing me and my sis liao, i really know that she is more prettier and cuter than me. but i ask these ppl, do you know how i feel deep inside my heart? i feel very inferior... have you got the feeling that all the ppl do not like you at all?
i have.. my clsmates, my family and relatives and even myself...ppl say they do not like my face, then what you want me to do? i cannot change my face even if i go for surgery... i am like tt, for those who cannot accept me , then fine lo...go ahead...i dun give a damn...
now i know y my sis smiles all the time and seems frenlier... bcos she does not have pressure and goals.. i have, bt not her... i aspire to become a surgeon or anaesthesist one day, and i want to be the top scorer, bt my sis does not... she is fucking a happy go lucky person who does not care so much and does not think of the future... tts y she does not have pressure and smiles all the time... i duno y she does not study and can have border line pass... i doubt she can this yr..
i seriously do not like her, and my mum is biased... she always side her...do u know i always cried and had no one to go to and talk... i dun think anyone wants to listen to me...
i admit that i have the face and character that guys would not like... seriously... i found out tt i do not have a lot of guy frens... haiz.. i think i am gg to remain single all my life....
who wants me?? i dunno..no one probably...
i tink tt i have a lot of talents like in music and studies, bt my family does not agree
i HATE it when my family compares my singing with my sis, she seriously have a fucking ugly voice bt my mum says her singing is gd and compare to me.( when i did not warm up my voice)
obvoiusly it is not fair,,, then my family says she gt a better voice.i have a gd voice, if not how can i make it into accapella's audition?
sis is gd at dancing, i am oso. it is just tt my mum nv c me dance b4, but i gt the third prize when i danced in school. she says i am not better then my sis.
i begged her to let me learn piano when i was in pri 4. she gave a resaons like you cannot juggle between school and piano... then i said if i can get into express, u must let mi learn.. she said ok..
i worked very hard for PSLE, i finally gt into express and she said my score isn't gd so she dun one to let me learn. then i waited for O levels. you know i am very weak ever since i m born as my heart gt problem... bt despite all this, i really studied for long hrs and my backbone now hurts and i suffer from sublaxation now....
then she said: i let ur sis learn so she can teach u...she is not gd in her studies so if i let her learn, she can bcome piano teacher and make a living...
WTF, i waited for 7 yrs and she said tt to me... she knows tt i like music n it is my life..n she did this to me...
nvm, i am used to it..
i tot i can make gd frens in poly, but NO. i was wrong.. i bet no one likes me in the cls... bcos i am dominant(i can't change tt, its my personality), ugly and so on...
i notice some of the facis like pretty girls and talk to em a lot and me this ugly girl get left out.. haa haa, during this 17 yrs, i did not live happily at all... i act in front of ppl that i am happi...and trust me, ppl talks behind me...saying bad abt me.. i have heard em saying b4, so many times tt i am used to it.. nvm, i'll just go along with it....
i want to go to the chalet, but no one would welcome me, so i decided not to go...i want to go bcos chelsia called me and asked me whether i am gg... i really wished to but cant...i'll be sure to ask her to go to town one day... but i am a bit tight...diaoz..
sometimes i hope i am nv born;i am neither rich nor pretty.....
i admit i like someone, bt he would not like mi... haha..used to it too..
i have a weak body too, i'll die anytime...
i wished that i can be a carefree fish swimming in the ocean, far form ppl who hates me.. i want to be alone...
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